Debating...

Today I'm feeling rather bored. I don't know whether or not I want to go to youth group tonight or not. Most of the people there ignore me, but it's my one chance this week to get out of the house and hang out with other kids my age. The game time is (sometimes) really fun, and then the music is cool, too.
We're studying 'predestination and election' in the bible study part, which I find really confusing and boring. From what I've figured out, according to the philosophy that the teachers have, God chose me to go to heaven or hell, at His whim, and there's nothing I can do about it. So in other words there's no point to life? I can just go out and do whatever I want and commit every sin in the book, but still go to heaven (that is, if I'm one of the select few)? Or I can believe that I'm saved, but I wasn't selected, so no matter what I do, I'm going to hell? I just don't get it. Predestination is a tricky subject. I usually end up zoning out half-way through it (and hope no-one asks me a question) because I just can't follow everything they're saying!
Now, my other choice of a way to get out of the house is to go to a pool party being hosted at the local pool. It's for boy scouts and their families, and S. is a boy scout, so I could go if I want to. That might be fun, since I've only been in a pool once this summer. But (there's always a catch), the only people I'd know there would be Mom, Dad, and my brothers. And what fun is a pool party if you don't hardly know anyone? Of course, my dad would point out the extreme abundance of teenage boys there. (With the stories S. comes home with, I don't know whether or not it's safe around that wild bunch! They have a pyrotechnician, a drill sargent, a candidate for the Funny Farm, a hyperactive nut or two, and who knows what else!) And the one sane one in the bunch that I know isn't in boy scouts any more.
At youth group, it's "new freshmen Sunday", which means that everyone has to introduce themselves, giving their name, age, and grade. But what grade am I in?? I chose Junior last year, because it meant it would be a longer amount of time before I'd have a certain teacher (I really don't like his teaching style. At all.), even though I was only 15 1/2 at the time. Now I'm stuck. I can't say this is my Senior year, because that raises questions.
"Aren't you only 16??"
"Yes, but..."
"How can you be a Senior??"
"You see..."
"Is it because you're homeschooled?"
"Yes, sort of..."
"So you're a year ahead of everyone else?"
"Not really. I'm just..."
"But you just said that you're 16 and a Senior."
"I know, but..."
"Whatever."
But then again, I can't say I'm a Junior, because that's what I was last year. So. I'm stuck. That's one of the disadvantages to homeschooling. My family's grades are all mixed up. It's frustrating! >:-[ (those are little frowny-eyebrows on the face there)


Maybe I'll go ahead and go to the pool party. Sometimes I hate having choices! It can be annoying. Anyway, we'll see.

Well, that's all I have time to say. K. wants to get on Angus now (Angus is the name of the computer. Weird, I know, but it fits it. Somehow.), so I'd better get off.
Adios!
~Kiwifruit